Last week saw my main character’s account’s subscription end.
The alt’s account’s subscription ended a month before that but I did not bother to resubscribe.
I also removed all the EVE-related blogs from my rss syndicator.
And I don’t feel any emotion. I still have images of spaceships in my mind, and images of would-be battles and tactics, and chat lines, but I guess these are the last to die. The EVE in your mind is the last to die.
I’ve been through this before; I returned after a month. This time, I don’t think I’ll return. I’ve changed too much to be able to return, at least in my present state of mind (very positive and healthy) I don’t think I will return.
But why also remove the blogs?
Blogs are the opinions of other players! Reading them has changed my experience into an unpleasant one, because my perceptions and expectations of the game experience have been changed. I used to like EVE when I started out; I was a noob but I did not know it. I did stupid things but I did not care. Because I could, because EVE allows you to. Regrettably other players are all too eager to point out all those issues which displeases them, and having so many players, and so many bloggers, you end up reading about displeasure and disappointment about all the features of EVE.
I also do not like MMOs any longer. When I play a game, I like to immerse myself into my role. I don’t usually go all out attrition by using the most damage-dealing unit only. I usually use all the features as they are meant to be used.
EVE is in a state of all-out attrition where players use only those features which give the maximum advantages. This is quite understandable, yet for an immersion-seeking guy like me, this is not fun after a while.
So, goodbye EVE Online. You’ll be remembered dearly and you will be truly missed. I won’t miss the EVE that you have become, but the EVE you were meant to be.
The time has come to leave my current corp. I placed 45 sell orders in Syndicate using the median price as appears on www.eve-central.com.
I do not have any emotion about this; I am used to changing corps, both in real life and especially in-game, but this (no emotion) is a confirmation that I am on the right track, or should I say, I wasn’t on the right track where I was.
I do not know what to do. I definitely do not have time to spend online until the end of March, due to pressing issues planetside. After that is done, I’ll see what’s on offer.
Until then, have fun.
Syndicate is a region within New Eden, one of the many. It has NPC sovereignty so there is no sov warfare going on. Yet it is full of traffic and fights and you should live there if you are looking for daily fights.
I live in Syndicate.
But I am not looking for daily fights.
The fights come and go with the roaming gangs. Sometimes you get entire fleets sniffing around looking for prey, sometimes you get the occassional dude flying solo looking for a kill, sometimes you get the occassional dude flying through minding his/her own business. Sometimes you get nothing at all, though these are very rare occassions.
Besides, and I found this true for all other 0.0 locations, whether under player or NPC sov, is that the market lacks many things, or otherwise are expensive. This poses great limitations to the casual player. For example, since moving to Syndicate over 2 months ago, I haven’t flown anything except the original ship I got here (a battleship, a battlecruiser and a cruiser). At 35 million skill points I can get in and out alive most of the time and I can get all that I want, but it’s a hassle I’m not ready to go through (hassle in the sense of hours of preparation and execution just to move stuff).
Do I want to stay in Syndicate?
I do not know the answer to this question. All I know is that the looking-forward-to-EVE emotion has gone and infact I have also cancelled my account subscription as I am not feeling that this game will take me anywhere – infact I have started to regret the time I spend online, realising that this is at the expense of other, more worthwhile time spent doing other things. I have until the 4th April paid up and that’s all the time EVE has to convince me to stay.
Was this the result of Syndicate?
Could be, but I feel it is more the shoot-the-shit-out-of-anything-that-is-not-blue-just-for-the-lolz attitude of many players of <0.5 New Eden, which is completely opposite to my inner calling.
Are you part of that community of players?
Definitely not, the guys are a nice bunch.
What are your present feelings?
Anger, disappointment, frustration. I have to think hard for any positive emotion to list. The best time of my online experience has been in empire during my noob days.
Please define fun.
I don’t know. Maybe try a couple of other games, maybe be back, maybe not. Maybe I’ll mature and never look at gaming any more, prefering something more practical, skillful and real, maybe I’ll die just after posting this.